These last few weeks have been just going through and I have gone to Dar and back and gone again and I am just wondering what happened to my life. Did I have any or do I have it now? Do I want to achieve more in life or just go with the flow and what is my purpose here again? I don't feel anything much these days, and to be honest, I could be angry but then to whom would it benefit…? The one with whom I am angry, would be angry too and the chain reaction would be started… on the other hand, the one with whom I am angry could be getting some kind of happiness on looking at me being angry… so that wouldn't be fair too.
I don't know anymore what I want… I am living my life just as I expected it to be some 2 years ago, that I would be having no boyfriends or a man in my life which is okay for now as I live here in this small city..LOL City??? and there is nothing to it even… not even a cinema hall where one could play new movies or a place for recreational purposes… I meant a volleyball ground or a swimming pool or a basketball place….! All I can see is so many bars mushrooming and people just being intoxicated by early evening. Is this what it comes it living in a small city like this? Yes I do have a choice but that is limited too… and yes I do have a choice to make my life better…. BUT to be honest, I AM JUST TIRED.